It’s considered bad form to mention in blog posts how long it’s been since you last published a blog post, so please excuse my bad form as I bring attention to the fact that it’s been a long while since I last wrote a blog post.
What I’m supposed to do instead is get right back into things like I haven’t left, but that would be dishonest of me.
The truth is, I’ve been struggling for the past several years- struggling getting out of toxic situations, getting appropriate medication for my mental health, becoming financially stable, and healing from the junk I’ve been told about myself so that I can embrace the person I really am.
All of that has made writing difficult, to say the least. And for a period of time, I needed to not be a writer. I needed to learn how to take care of myself, how to trust my sense of reality, and how to be all of the parts that make up me.
I can’t continue on as if I never left because my life is so profoundly different than it was only four years ago. While, at my core, I’m the same person I’ve always been, I also know that everything I’ve come through, processed, etc, has deeply affected what and how I write now.
For example, thanks to finally being on medication to prevent my recurrent migraines and treat my anxiety, I’ve had close to a year of being able to be happy for more than two weeks at a time. I honestly still can’t wrap my head around the fact that things really can be this good.
Like… how would I even begin to explain this to my past self? Even the me of last year, who was trying desperately to get the medication I needed, had zero clue how much this was going to affect me for the better. Goodness.
While I can’t promise how writing is going to look for me yet, I knew today that it was time to write this. And I feel good about writing it, which is a big change from the last couple of years of trying to force myself to keep up with writing things that I really wasn’t up for doing.
So I’m going to continue to take it slow, listen to myself, and take steps forward when the time comes for them to naturally happen.
And I suppose we’re going to find out together what that’s going to end up looking like 😊
Some Important News
I have a dog now
She’s a three year old toy poodle named Emma and I love her so much.
Her likes include belly rubs, pets and snuggles of all kinds, treats, and barking when any of my neighbours leave or enter their apartments.
Her dislikes include too many new things and/or people (same), and me leaving the apartment without her.
I also have green hair
After having long hair since I was about six, I now have short hair and it’s the best thing ever. Also, it’s fantastic in green.
(Is this an excuse to share another dog photo with you? Yes)
(Fun fact: Emma and I snuggle every night before sleep time and it is absolutely as adorable as you’re imagining)
On the 23rd, I’ll be doing a livestream with Oliver Twirl for my upcoming game You Are Stuck in a Maze
(Yes, Emma will be there)
In case you haven’t seen me talk about it on social media, I’ve been working on another Twine game (The Tree and the Grave was my first one), wherein you are stuck in a maze and have to try to get out. Why are you stuck in this maze? Eh, it just happens to people from time to time. Perfectly normal.
Oliver Twirl, aka my youngest sibling, has agreed to do a livestream with me on their Twitch channel, wherein they play through You Are Stuck in a Maze. Since the game itself isn’t polished enough for anyone to see it on screen, this playthrough will be accomplished through dramatic reading.
I am SO EXCITED.
Come join us Dec 23rd at 2pm MST/4pm EST on Oliver’s Twitch channel.
Expect shenanigans, the good kind of game bugs, and cathartic pyrotechnics. I’m looking forward to seeing you there!